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  • Lost all hope.

    I am from Bangladesh.

    have some stupid mistakes in my life and I
    am paying heavily for this Episode. #1
    october 29,2014 I had protected vaginal sex
    with a female csw.I also french kissed
    her.Later found the girl HIV +.After 5 weeks I
    experienced severe flue type illness.Swollen
    lymph nodes under jaw and neck,loose
    stool,hedeach,severe muscle and joint
    pain,rash on both arm. I have tested after 3
    months with 3rd generation rapid test,after 5
    months with 3rd generation elisa, after 6.5
    months with 3rd generation rapid test.All are
    negative. 2# July
    16 2017 I had protected oral and protected
    vaginal sex with a female csw.Dont know
    why? Vaginal part only lasted 10-15
    seconds.The girl seemed a consistent
    condom user.No real symptom aftee 1-4
    weeks. Episode 3 # October 17 2017 I had
    protected vaginal sex with a csw.She offered
    me to have sex without a condom for extra
    charge.But she assured me she gets tested
    every month. Now you are thinking whats the
    real problem.Actually Im experiencing the
    symptom of overt aids.Lose of appetite,Loosing
    weight,fatigue, dizziness ,swollen lymph
    nodes,loose stool,nail
    fungus,clubbing nail are
    making my life hell.I have been loosing weight before my 2nd exposure. I haven't tested for the 2nd & 3rd exposure.I
    dont know what to do? I cry and pray to
    God.Ive ruined my life.In my country HIV stigma is very deep and like a death sentence.

  • #2
    Dude, the only way to know if you have contracted hiv is to get tested.

    If you are negative after 3 months for 3rd gen or 28 days for the 4th gen test, you may move on.

    The only way for you to not "lose all hope" is if you weigh the pros and cons carefully. Abstinence is the best approach if you do not want to continuously worry about the risk of contracting hiv(It really depends on your risk aversion). Otherwise, you have to be prepared to test regularly perhaps once every 3 - 6 months since you are sexually active.

    Testing helps to keep your sanity in check.

    hope that helps.


    • #3
      All of my symptoms point towards only one thing. I cant find any other reason of these symptoms. If my test come back negative surely it will be miracle.